Thursday, May 15, 2014

Losing It!




Losing It!


Becoming small. It’s a lot of work. Really? I would have never believed it if you would have told me that a month ago. It seems so simple. Just “get rid of it, give it away, throw it away, “be done with it”.  If only it were that simple. You start down that path, and then the complications set in, and the questions arise.  Who, I remember that, remember how the…..” and “that was so cute, and remember the day when we…..”? We found out something about ourselves in “trying to be rid” of our possessions. It wasn’t what it cost, or what we could get for it, it was the memories we associated with it that had prompted us to “save’ it. It took a while, but we wrapped our heads around the fact that keeping the memories did not require keeping the associated object! And if any of you tell Diane anything different after all the time it took me to convince her, I’ll be looking for youJ.



Garage/Moving Sale; come and get it (even for free)


Yes, we gave it away. Lots of it. Stuff. Junk. Yes, we know we paid for it, but we used it, it did well for us, and in the end, it paid for the moving van and gas to move the stuff we thought we wanted to keep. We even had people barter with us, so we showed them, and lowered the price to below what they started bartering at. Some of them caught on and laughed. Some of them became frustrated, and demanded I accept the price. Others kept playing the game until they got it for free. Yup. We actually sold an entertainment center, a lighted glass display shelf, and a dining room table for $0 (zero) dollars after all the dickering. We were glad to see the couple that ended up with it pay that price, we know they needed it, and paid what they could afford. A fair deal, no doubt. The one bright spot was the lady that saw some of this happening, and tried to buy Diane’s exercise-treadmill machine for $25, Di was asking $50. I told her I could take $40, but no less. She replied that she really needed it, and had no money. With a delighted grin, I asked her how she was able to put gas in the brand new Escalade she parked in front of the driveway, and how much the down payment was, as there were still the new dealer advertisers in the license plate frames, and I was thinking if I could get $40 for the treadmill I might go buy one like it myself. She wasn’t even embarrassed, said she would be back later in the day to see if I would change my mind, it would still be there. Back in her cool ride, off she went. Diane sold it 5 minutes later to a Hispanic speaking couple, who gladly paid the $50 she was asking. My guess is they held down jobs, and worked for money………………………………….. Bright spot of the day was when our neighbor “Biker Bob” of famed “Bob’s Backhoe Service" came and picked through the mass. Now we had really made the big time of junk sales, Bob showed up! Much to my delight, he gathered up lots of treasure, made me an offer on the lot, and I bartered him down to half what he was willing to pay. Puzzled he questioned why I would do such a thing. My reply “why else would the good Lord bring together two of the craziest people on Earth such as you and I, if not for us to engage in something totally beyond reason”? With that we shook hands on the deal, exchanged a hug, and loaded up his 29 model A pickup with the bestest ever A-Town business deal. I swear.



Our loss of a loved one.

I can’t say much about it yet, but I will in a future post. Even this short passage brings tears from eye to cheek.  Sunday afternoon, as the sale was winding down, our beloved Cheyenne, who has been weakened and ill of late, decided it was all too much for her. I found her on the porch, limp as a rag, and struggling to breathe, totally incapacitated. I held her in my arms and on my lap and comforted her, along with Diane, and we sent her off to doggie heaven with all our love, to wait there for us. She deserves an entire post in her behalf, coming soon.  






Loading it Up, Moving it Out!
We’re still working on it. No, it’s all been loaded, and unloaded, but we’re working through letting it go. We have way too much still, and now we’ve hauled it to the mountains. I’m seriously thinking therapy is the only answer.  We knew we were crossing back over the line, but we’re making progress. Baby steps, it’s going to take baby steps…………………………………….
 
Swamper
That’s what they used to call the guy that rode with the truck drivers back in the day. They were there to help load and unload, wash the truck, you get the picture. Well, when I explained to George that I needed a swamper, he signed right on. As soon as we got to the load/unload part, he quickly re-negotiated his contract only to include the “riding along” duties, and reminded me of his rights under the revised Fair Labor Standards Act.
 

 

 
We are Finally Home!
Yes , living out of boxes, but they are unloaded, and we are here! I had a chance to sleep in late, and George and I took a walk in the forested lava bed behind our house down to one of the Osprey nests I know about, and had quite a show from a pair, feeding their young’uns a fat trout from the lake.  What an awesome sight.
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
A little bit about George
Most of you know about my best friend George, he is a beagle, now twelve years young, and one of Cheyenne’s first pups. But most of you don’t know how I came about deciding to keep George, or the circumstances that brought us together. You see, George was born one stormy winter night, January 30, 2002. Back then, I was working as a Public Works Section Supervisors for the County Roads and Transportation Division. Part of my job then, was to go out and inspect roadways on dark and stormy nights, and call out and supervise field work crews to get those roads safe for morning commuter traffic. Luck would have it, January 30, 2002 was a big (and very rare) snow storm, all night long. Diane was left home alone with a pregnant Cheyenne, and proud Papa to be Cody, and a snow storm. I got a call from her just before daylight on my cell phone that Cheyenne had been giving birth to her litter, and hiding them out in the now frozen garage so that Cody wouldn’t harm them. Instinct for a dog, but bad news during a snow storm. I had her try and find them all and get them all into then warm house, including Cody! I rushed home, which took about 30 minutes from where I was, and found Cheyenne and her litter in a well warmed living room wrapped in my sleeping bag, and all contained in a kids wading pool. Good girl Diane! But Diane was in tears, and handed me a box with yet 4 more pups inside it. Two of them obviously had expired long before, and rigor was set in. The other two were still, not breathing, frigid, but somewhat pliable. I quickly shoved them one each under my armpits. After a moment, I removed the first, gave him a gentle rub or two, stretched out his tiny li’l front arms, and placed his muzzle in my mouth, puffing ever so gently. 5 puffs, 15 compressions, stretch the arms, 5 more puffs, 15 more compressions. Two or three cycles like that, and we got a big yawn and a big stretch out of each one of the. We were ecstatic. We laughed, we cried, we promised Cheyenne we would feed them if she couldn’t, and we did. She in fact had twelve other pups in the litter aside from these two, and more than her hands full. We ended up supplementing them all with a baby bottle and formulated supplement from the vet. One was named Lazarus from the Bible fable, the other was named George because he was so curious and in to everything, it fit with the then very popular cartoon, Curious George, except, he was no monkey. Besides, I was into Jack Johnson’s music and the whole scene. We knew we would not allow the two pups to be sold with the litter mates, as the possibility existed that they had damaged nervous systems from the long term with no oxygen to the brain. They both have had no ill effects that we know of from the still births. We gave Lazarus to a coworker for his son to enjoy. George, on the other hand, was different. I did not decide to keep him. He decided to keep me. Right from the get go. From the day he opened his eyes (and before) I was his Mom. He followed me everywhere, and ignored the litter, and Cheyenne. If I was out of his sight for more than 30 seconds, he would pine, and howl, and cry. As soon as I appeared, he would jump for joy and maul me with every affection. Still to this day, we are inseparable by his doing. And I am undoubtedly his enabler. I love him so. We have a rare bond that few will ever know between human and dog. George will tell you, he is glad he chose me to be his dog.

 
 

 
 

One more trip to the California Coast.
Tomorrow we head back down to pick up Diane’s car, and Second Wind. We will list our big house (quite a nice place actually) to be sold. I can honestly say I will not miss the place, any of it. Too many ghosts of lives lived and times past. We are ready to move on, believe me. On to Pacific Wonder, back to my roots, where I belong, and to share with Diane the great wonderful world, and all its beauty, and glory, and fury and wonder, outside the protective barriers of, “the accepted way of life” most Americans live, responsibly so, but without “the realness" of life itself.   We be cruisers soon enough!
 

SEE YA OUT THERE!

Saturday, April 5, 2014

WAKE UP, IT ISN'T A DREAM.
 
But it seems like it is. Two or three years ago we began to think about what we would do with ourselves during our rapidly approaching retirement. Many people dedicate themselves so fully to their work, and have such heightened passions for what they do, it is very common for some just to keep working past their available "healthy golden years" and into the rocker on the porch with satisfaction.  Truth is, we were never caught up in that kind of a paradigm. A displaced commercial fisherman from decades ago when low fish populations and escalating regulations demanded a change in our approach to "reasonable harvests", my transition to a government career was never more than a job and never less than a way to contribute to society, and earn a living. Despite the fact that Diane had always worked in a clerical position since graduating from high school at one place or another, the field chose her, not the other way around. So the bottom line for us, notwithstanding the fact that we both valued the careers we had as public servants, and the wonderful folks we worked with every day in our different capacities, "cutting the umbilical cord" wasn't a difficult decision to make. Years ago, we had planned it that way. Our problem was, there are just so many different things we like to do outside of work, the question would become "where to begin".

NATURE, IT ISN'T A VIRTUAL EXPERIENCE

We've both always been about "being real". Because it's natural, and so are we. And when I say that, I don't mean it in a sense of "no sweeteners added", or "without comfort". We believe God, or Natural Selection, or Karma, or (insert your own idea into the blank provided) whatever, gave us brains, and thumbs, for a reason, to use them, and make things better! We love the outdoors, and everything about it, like a crisp morning below freezing in a down parka, or a hot triple digit afternoon next to a cool pool in the shade of a tree. We like to be thirsty because it is so fulfilling to drink,  and we like to be hungry as it motivates us to feast. Naturally, and without remorse. And so while identifying this trait which we share did not give us a specific direction, it did provide some guidance, clear enough, allowing us to pursue activities naturally in the outdoors, as comfortably as we desired. With that, we began making plans to live out our remaining years with purpose, and deliberately set out to establish goals focused on satisfying our inner and outer selves. We began to realize that life could show us the way if only we listen to our own yearnings, and we seek to become a bit less responsive to the yearnings of others. So be it, as we truly believe we earned it the old fashioned way, and we are unapologetic for feeling so inclined.

HIGH SODIUM PLASMA

It's always been about boats for me. Big boats, small boats, fast boats , tall boats. I think it can be said with some truth  that I talked my father into buying his first boat. More truthfully, I likely begged him. Like so many of us that suffer from this ailment of boats, I haven't a clue where it came from. Maybe they'll find a genetic cause some day, I don't know, but I'm  as sure as there is a tomorrow, it is an addiction. I remember well the very first time I jumped in a rowing skiff. I was at a private lake where my family frequently picnicked as a child of seven or eight years. I had been admiring the skiff at a distance for a picnic or two previously, and vowed to myself that the next time I laid eyes on it unattended at one of these boring affairs, I would put it to good use. As fate would have it, the very next outing, there it was , nestled on a beach next to my uncles cabin, begging to be launched. I waited patiently for the perfect opportunity to sneak out from under the watchful eye of my mother, and sneaked down to the boat. She was a typical build for the era( mid1960's) of plywood over sawn wood frames with a planked bench seat across mid-ship beam, and a pair of oarlocks mounted slightly abaft of the seat. Flat bottomed and heavy as a freight car, shoving her in alone was going to take some effort. As luck would have it, there were the oars, inviting me to hold hands and dance. Then reality struck home with a cruel vengeance. Strain as I did, as hard as any could imagine, I could not budge her from the beach.

 A scrawny but stubborn kid, I had never in my oh so few years, failed to execute. This  I vowed to myself, would not be the first time either. I struggled and struggled, and then, as it happens, I had an idea. I had seen my father use this technique before with success, so I began combing the small beach for a downed limb. Soon enough I was dragging a derelict limb that had been lying on the beach for some time up to the skiff. I rolled a somewhat large rock off the bank, and began to use the limb and rock in an attempt to crow hop the skiff into the lake at last, and it was working. ...and that is when my father showed up at my side, with that look, and that voice which I knew so well by then to ask "what in the hell".  But, but............"Well", he said, "If your going to steal Glen's boat, put on this life jacket first". Half scared, with a heart of glee, I did, and he talked me through a rowing lesson from the beach. I was alone, and making way over water, in a boat. I was in heaven, and at the same time became cursed and possessed by the maritime disease, and have suffered the consequences ever since. There is salt in my veins!


Unloading Rock Cod, Port San Luis Obispo,  1972

Don't get me wrong. I have backpacked, bushwhacked, hunted big game, skied and all other things related to the back county as well, but a ship is my drug of choice, and will always be. I voted to sail into retirement, that was my dream.

MOUNTAIN GIRL - SNOW ANGEL

It's hard to say when she "went that way" as she says she can't remember. Only that her family always took the usual summer camping trip vacation. River rafting the white water of the Kern river was natural to her. After all, her father was a part time river rafting guide there for a time, and his raft was aptly named "Olaf". A tall, thin,  blond and blue eyed beauty of Swedish decent, she looked my way once, and I was putty in her hands, and proud of it. Aside from the raging river, she was climbing rocks, cross country skiing, and backpacking her way into my heart and my life. Talking her into hunting, and later fishing with me was as easy as the asking. We thrived in the outdoors, heck, she thrived in the natural world. And along with that outdoor enthusiasm, she brought a wisdom that had never occurred to me, and it took her some time to "indoctrinate me" to her ideology. Cleanliness and comfort, IS natural! It's been said a time or two that I can be a fast study, but I'll admit here and now that I was dumb as a fence board daffy as the duck, and it took her years to make me understand that a soft bed and a hot shower ARE ESSENTIAL.  But now I get it, and enjoy it as well. Good job honey!

 One day years ago, after a long week or so of bushwhacking in the back county of the High Sierra near the headwaters of the North Fork of the San Joaquin River, we stopped at her insistence at a little hot spring mineral bath house still high up the mountain. Point made, and I would never again pass by that bath house with crusted elbows and sticky pits, without languishing for a time in a hot mineral shower for a dollar. .............and from there it was all downhill until we found the little log cabin near the edge of the lake full of mountain trout, and made it ours.


Our Mountain Home
 A trip to the mountains used to be packing sleeping bags tied to packs on our back filled with dehydrated carbohydrates and pumping water from a creek full of giardia deposited from animal crossings. Now, due in no small way to the wisdom of Diane's teaching, we have evolved into indoor evening campfires, and cross country ski trips out the back door of our log cabin into some of California's most beautiful and pristine landscapes, where the north end of the mighty Sierra adjoin the southern most volcanic mountains in the Cascade Range,  our little piece of heaven on earth. Yes Lord, she's still a mountain girl.



My Mountain Angel



COLLABORATION - THERE'S PLENTY FOR ALL

Worlds apart perhaps, but worlds have been known to collide before, and so it has always been with us.


Play Together, Stay Together

 In our vows, we agreed always to add for the other, and never to ask one give up for the other. After all there is plenty for all! And so it was , once settled in with the cabin, and all the big projects completed to make the place a suitable house to live out our days, we began the hunt for a boat. Not that we didn't have a boat. We've always had one boat or another. But as we began to assess our capabilities, and needs, and wants now too, the image of THE boat began to form in our minds, and on the pages of a notebook we assembled to organize our search. We wanted a vessel large enough to live aboard for long periods, but not so large we couldn't afford to keep it. We looked into trawlers at first as the basic design and operation of them were second nature to me as a "once upon a time" fish'n boat Cap'n. But the price of fuel these days and the uncertain future of the carbon based lifestyle philosophy quickly emerging, I began to rekindle my lifelong desire to one day hoist canvas, we revisited the possibility of sail. Although I had dreamed of it since a child, life's roads lead me astray, and I had long since shelved the idea as too late in life's plan.

 Once again, along came Diane to the rescue. Why is it too late, she asked? A short year later we were enrolled in an eight day live aboard sailing course, and bound for ASA certification. And although I expected to "breeze" through, and did, Diane was the champ. She went from a day one "Tentative Tessa" to a day 3 "Docking Queen", stuffing the little 32 foot Catalina sloop perfectly into a back isle squeeze slip  barely wide enough for a canoe while levering a cross current. It was amazing! No one even thought "fend off" for one second. As well, her day at the helm was a full blown gale off the coast of Santa Cruz. She stood fast, put the boat to weather, commanded the crew (me and the instructor) with a confidence, and close hauled us port tack, then starboard tack, then port tack again at just the right angle into the weather, that the little Catalina heeled up at 20 degrees back and forth across the foaming wind streaked chop with ease, and we slid into the harbor as if we had been at it for a lifetime.


Ready About!
 With that trial passed, we began a fever pitched search up and down the coast for the perfect boat. I was on a mission, and hell bent to make a mistake, no doubt, when a long time friend pulled up my reins and said "whoa there". His words still ring in my mind "Remember, It's All About the Process". And so it was, and so it came to pass. It took a long time, and we travel afar in our pursuit of that boat, from San Diego, all the way to Anacortes. But one day, in a little harbor, in a small private marina behind a group of waterfront homes on Whidbey Island, we met Wanda.

PACIFIC WONDER - AKA - "WANDA"

As we pulled up our rented car to the address the owner had given us over the phone, and peered down the walkway between the houses, there she was. She looked just as good in person as she did in the photo's on the ad we found on the Internet. The owner said she would, and he wasn't embellishing for the sale, and he was right. So the nasty part of it all began, just as it is with anything where money changes hands and deals are struck or lost. There were negotiations, and dickering, the usual posturing, and scheming, the tit for tat, the surveys, the estimates, the reconsideration and reconciliations. But at the end of it all, weeks later, and exhausted, it was done. Wanda was ours! We placed her on the hard to wait for our return. Now we again had a purpose, a goal, and a plan to make.


Our Boat and Home, Pacific Wonder
PERSPECTIVE

It's an interesting concept, perspective. You stand at one place and assess the landscape. Move to the other end of the field, and look back at the same place, and it is no longer what you thought you saw from yonder. So it is with all else in life. Were we setting about to plan the end, or putting an end to the beginning?  Or were we finally just emerging, and about to begin, as the previous chapter was only the necessary introduction to what was new to come? We'll agree to let Plato or Aristotle figure that one out, as we now have the two worlds, mountain and sea, set to collide. Managing that collision is going to be all consuming. We know that, as we have found it too difficult to manage juggling the enjoyment of the collision, and the emergence of our newly found self indulgent attitudes with serving the public in  our previous capacities as County employees. We have reclaimed our sense of self worth, seen a vision of the value  of our creator endowed proclivities which are detached and a world apart from our dutiful assigned tasks at work, and we have now executed our retirements in an effort to pursue our real paths in this world! In short, we have come to realize that this time, the time in which we now exist , IS OUR TIME! 

With that, we hope you will enjoy following us through all our little adventures, as we have a lot to learn, a lot to see, and much to share as we experience....Pacific Wonder. And we vow to never forget my friend Richard's words of wisdom. It's all about the process....................


SEE YA OUT THERE!